Rainy's Kit-Kats {OLD GEN}

Night and his three littermates Thunder, Snow, and Adder were born to two Tribe cats named Leaf and Bird.  His father gave him the name Night because he was the spitting image of his grandfather, Night of Many Stars, who died moons before he was born.  The four siblings were always very close in their kithood and always looked out for each other.  For the brief time he was alive, Night was very close to his father Leaf, but shortly before the kits became to-be's he was taken by a mysterious sickness.  As the family's lives went on, only more pain seemed to come their way.  Snow, the runt of the siblings, was taken by an eagle because her white fur wasn't hidden enough during a hunting patrol.  Devastated by both of the losses, and not feeling like she belonged in the Tribe, Adder left and is presumed dead.  Night grieved for all these tragedies, but he always found a way to keep strong to support his other family members.  When the bad winter came, he lost both his mother and brother to starvation in one fell swoop, leaving him extremely shocked.  For a while, he suffered his depression in silence but soon pushed aside his grief to help the Tribe survive.

This is the outline of what Fernpetal's final topic was meant to be. I was very proud of this idea, but did not want to complete the topic, so I'm sharing this for closure.

1. Post-death realization of what state she's in, and that she's completely alone. She remembers witnessing Crowstar's death. She realizes that she can't see the stars, only the moon. Main emotions are confusion, shock, and fear. It ends with her running away from the scene of death. Denial.

2. A few days later, she peeks in on the camp and sees that everything is running smoothly without her and Silentwhisper. She becomes angry, and questions why she even worked so hard to only be forgotten. In the back of her mind, she worries that once cats forget her entirely she'll fade away. Main emotions are frustration, irritation, and anxiety. In the end, she walks away, vowing to never watch over the camp again. Anger

3. About a moon passes by, and Fernpetal doesn't know what to do with herself. Her existence is truly pointless and meaningless, and that knowledge is tearing her apart. Out of desperation, she calls out for Silentwhisper, then Rippedstar, Mintwhisker, and then very hesitantly her mother. Pansyface's voice appears, windy and mysterious. Fernpetal, not sure if it's real or not, pours out her anger and fears and tries to ask for advice or a release from her situation. Pansyface appears in a ghostly form and asks Fernpetal is she can see the stars yet. Pissed off by the vague answer, she goes to attack her mother, but it ends up just being a tree at the last second, which she phases through. She runs away. Main emotions are overwhelmed helplessness, hostility and flight (cowardice) Bargaining

4. Another moon passes by, and Fernpetal has given up on trying to find the good in her situation. She mostly lays around and tries to sleep, but the world won't fade away. She wishes that cats would hurry up and forget her faster, and she's lost hope of ever seeing Silentwhisper again. She's totally broken. One day though she sees a cat moving through the forest, one that looked like her. Catching up with him, they have a brief conversation near the edge of Twolegplace, and she asks how he can be so content with his existence. He tells her that his family lives on, and he'll watch over them for the rest of his time. Upon asking about her own situation, Fernpetal talks about her life from kithood to death, including her mom. The tom says that she's a lost wanderer and that the only way to be truly content and find where she belongs is to look deep inside, past every wall she's built up, and face the truth of her sorrow. Having nothing else left to do, Fernpetal agrees to do so, and the tom wishes her well. She goes back to the forest. Main emotions are struggling to find meaning, reaching out to others, and telling one's story. Depression.

5. That night, Fernpetal climbs the tallest tree in the forest and sits on the topmost branch, closing her eyes and tries to dive deep into her heart. At first, she gets frustrated and doesn't see anything beyond what she has for her whole life, but as she tries to calm down and concentrate, she reflects on the happy times in her life, when she's felt the freest. Playing with her sister as a kit, being with Silentwhisper, and seeing Pansyface on her moonstone journey. She reflects on the truths in why those made her so happy, but the thought of Pansyface makes her remember the times when she was most unhappy. Being alone in her clan, being called out by Lichenmask, disowning her sister, losing Night, and lastly realizing that she would never meet her mother. She reflects on why being compared to Pansyface made her so sour, and comes to terms with the fact that she always missed her mother. As that dawns upon her, everything starts to unravel; how her grief had turned into anger towards StarClan, how her rejection of medicine cats was partly because they couldn't save her mother, and how her hatred of StarClan was because they didn't save Pansyface. As all this comes to light in her heart, she finally breaks down, realizing how wrong she was and that the times when she had felt most happy were when she was closest to her family and to StarClan. She cries, realizing how much she misses her sister and her mate, and her mother. She calls up to the moon, to Pansyface, for forgiveness, telling her that she wishes she could be alongside her now, before closing her eyes. After just a moment though, she hears Pansyface's voice and opens her eyes to see the sky alight with stars, finally returned. Distracted by her awe, she doesn't realize another cat is on the branch with her, and she flips around to see her mother, tears in her eyes. Sobbing, Fernpetal presses herself against her mother, apologizing and professing that she never wants to leave her again. Saying that she'll never have to, Pansyface has Fernpetal turn back to the sky, and she watches as her loved ones come forward - Silentwhisper, Rippedstar, her stillborn siblings, Moonlight, and lots of other family members. As she reunites with all of them, she feels so happy she can almost feel her paws become lighter, and as her mother asks tearfully; "Do you finally believe?" Fernpetal responds with "I believe in you...I always have." As she says it, she leaps off the branch in a blaze of stardust, gaining her StarClan form, and flying away up into the sky with her family, leaving behind one new star in the night sky. Main emotions are exploring options, new plans, moving on. Acceptance.

60% Slytherin, 22% Ravenclaw, 14% Griffyndor, 4% Hufflepuff
Your Slytherin ambition combined with a typically Ravenclaw-esque thirst for wisdom means you are destined to go far in life. People often consider you to be aloof and unapproachable – and they may actually be right – as your passion for knowledge and success far outweighs your need for close relationships. For you, true friendships are rare, but you are smart enough to hold onto those you deem worthy of your affection.

You Are 30% Hufflepuff, 28% Ravenclaw, 23% Gryffindor, and 19% Slytherin!
You belong in Hufflepuff without question, but your Ravenclaw-esque appreciation for knowledge means your many friends come to you when they need advice from someone with a level head. While you enjoy any kind of learning, working as part of a team is where you truly thrive. You are an excellent collaborator, and understand that communication with others is an essential part of learning and, more importantly, growing as a person.

Your slight compatibility with Gryffindor house hints at an underlying desire for adventure that may manifest itself in a love of travel or trying new things.

You Are 40% Hufflepuff, 25% Gryffindor, 19% Slytherin, and 16% Ravenclaw!
You’re undeniably a Hufflepuff, but you definitely have some strong Gryffindor qualities. You proudly wear your heart on your sleeve, but you lack the recklessness of a true Gryffindor, which means that you don’t act on your feelings without thinking. Your kindness and openness is what originally attracts other people to you, but they stay for your unwavering loyalty, meaning you’re constantly surrounded by a large group of friends.

Your slight compatibility with Slytherin house suggests a determination to succeed, though not at the expense of traits from your more dominant houses.