Becoming your fear(Solo)

OrangeHeart stood staring into SkyClan territory wandering about life. What was his purpose? Why did he exist? And why did it all have to be around SkyClan? After all he experienced he just wanted to see SkyClan burn.. burn.. and burn. It was pouring hard the rain soothed him. The lightning in the distance it all was in the perfect scene of death. Then it gave him an idea if he could somehow manipulate the lightning over into SkyClan territory then he could just indeed watch SkyClan burn but how? He began thinking more serious thoughts the more he stood there doing absolutely nothing.

Then it got to him just as he could barely stand lightning almost struck him right in the head. Instead he moved out of the way and headed inside of Foretrees to think even more but he couldn’t move at all. He tried moving with all his might but couldn’t. Then his body moved finally but it was moving to where he couldn’t control it. It was a weird feeling but it was happening. All he could control was his head and that’s it. He walked for what seemed like ages and having no idea where he was he began for the first time since being a Kit he felt scared.

Then after more and more walking he started to lose control of his entire body he laughed uncontrollably. And then he felt like he lost control of everything and all he could do was watch himself do things he did not control his body to do. And when cliffs came his body just turned to the right for no apparent reason. Then after what seemed like almost all night he found himself surrounded by dogs.

They all rushed at him he tried to move again but couldn’t and he just kept walking. Once a dog was near enough uncontrollably he moved out of the way instantly jumping on top of the dog the biting it neck killing it he watched in terror as he himself did this. Then after all the dogs were gone all sorts of predators were there but he killed them all. BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was just a flash a vision but he couldn’t help but feel all sorts of wrong and feel creeped. Then after a few moments the exact thing happened again again and again.

Then after what seemed like a million times he got in control and out of the vision that repeated in his head it was still dark out. Then after a few more final thoughts he walked towards camp. Feeling defeated then he could not believe his eyes on what he saw next, blood in the middle of ThunderClan territory. After a few seconds of staring lightning hit him then there he lay feeling burnt to death but still alive.He woke up the next day somehow to see no blood on the ground and a clear sky. And finally walked back to camp feeling the exact opposite of comforted.