swift and sure [c]

Swiftheart was lost in thought, the secret she and Sablestrike had about their kits was holding up. No one supspected that they were Heatherberrys at all.

The constant lies that Swiftheart had to tell to pretend to be their mum and to pretend to be sabelstrikes mate was a lot to try and deal with. She hated lies and hated that she had to do all this just to protect her loved ones.

She was so lost in her thoughts she had not heard the leader approaching.

She was thinking to make sure there wouldnt ever be a way anyone would ever find out the secrets, and she was tormented in the decision that this was the right thing for the kits safety and for the safety of Heatherberry should she ever return.

At the nudge that was meant to be friendly she nearly jumped out of her pelt in shock and startle.

"good stars... you scared me" she meowed irritated and fur raised from the jump.

She relaxed a bit seeing it wasnt a predator or threat.

She was on edge much more than usual, in part from living a constant lie and having to constantly try and pretend to be Juni and willows mom.

The usually so energetic, happy and sweet cat was noticibly more tired, more on edge.

Leopardstars questions were kind and she blinked forcing herself to not panic that these questions were her leader trying to interogate her about her recent slump of things... had Leopardstar noticed her being odd around Sablestrike or the kits??

She forced those thoughts aside best she could.

She blinked taking a long sigh of a breath,

no no come on swift focus she meowed to herself in her mind.

she just wants to check up on you, as a friend I'm sure of it
her inner voice told her.


"erm things have not been easy lately" she meowed in admittance,

there was no point hiding that she was doing worse than her usual perky self.

"I havent slept well at all lately and I think im stressed"

She couldnt say WHY these things were happening to her, she was stressed beyond belive that her cover story of being the kits mom would be found out... and she worried that someone would take it out on the kits unfairly.

It only took one crazy cat, someone like Redice to get a crazy idea in their head that the kits were to blame somehow for the forbidden love that Heather and Sable had.

She never understood why med cats couldnt love who they loved. In any case she was constant state of worry and stress that she wouldnt be able to hide the thruth forever, even as her best intention were to protect her friend Heatherberry and the kits from the awful rule, she knew sooner or later someone would find out.

She wondered... if she should tell her leader... Leopard would know what to do right?? She would understand?

She forced her mouth closed, she felt so trapped and alone. Of all the clanmates, it was known she was emotional, and she didn't try and hide that from anyone, even back as an apprentice she would openly cry not caring who saw or not, it was how she dealt with things, and she liked having the support of others around when it happened.

"I'm not well Leopardstar" she meowed blinking back tears

"I think I need to see Nightpaw."

Swiftheart nodded a little closing her eyes. Leopardstar was right, seeking out help was okay to do. She poked at the frog a little bit, grateful that she had been thought of but in truth she wasn’t all that hungry. Especially now.

She gave a nod, and how are you doing leopardstar?