(OOC: This is pretty sad, I dont usually make my posts this down and sad but this one is up there. It also shamelessly breaks the 4th wall and I speedy talk directly to you the viewer as I take you back in time to where this all began. This is not really like any other post and is a very different style than what I usually do but yay lets goooo!)
Batsong sat just outside her den. She knew that this day had been coming, had tried to ignore it and somehow had just hoped that it might pass her by without it effecting her. But when today finally arrived it effected her in a big way, bigger than she had ever imagined it would have.
She felt crummy all morning but had activly fought off thinking about it.
... That had worked but only for the first couple of hours of the day.
She tried to just go about her job and routine telling herself over and over that nothing was different about today than any other day but it hadnt worked.
It was just after lunch that she just completely broke down. She sat in her den while her eyes just poured tears. She felt like she had been hit repeatedly in the gut as she drew in shaky breaths as she began to full on sob.
But why? Why you might be asking as the reader. Why is she like this? Well I will tell you, lets go back in time... Rewind the calendar back a year or so... no wait its exactly one year... thats why she is so sad. This is the 1 year aniversery of her meeting and making her very first friend in windclan... ya know what? Why dont we take a little trip you and I? hmm? yes through time back to where it all began.
Ok rewind it back back back back back, before she became med cat, before she became warrior, before even being adopted by swiftsprit and Mistysky.
and there we are.
See her?! thats her the little fluffball of black fur sitting right over there. I point out to you. And see how all the other little kittens are over there a ways away playing with themselves?
yup, thats about right, she never was super sociable or good at making new friends. But that's okay, she is still a bundle of joy, look at her chasing that little butterfly aww.
Ok... now see that little kit over there? Yeah the fire pelt looking one... Yeah that is scorchkit and hes what this is all about sadly.
We fast forward just slightly and boom Batkit and Scorchkit are playing in the snow right in front of our eyes.
"ahh yes, see how happy she is? He was her very first friend and what a friendship it was!" The two kits are tackling over 'badgers' which were in reality snow mounds that they had piled up.
it quickly turned into a game of truth or dare where batkit had dared Scorchkit to go mess up the leaders nest... which he promplty did to her great ammsument and delight.
"sigh.... she always did have that innocent mischeif to her as well I suppose.... hmm okay well moving on "
Fast forwards some more
ahh yes... the next big event for them.
Batpaw can be seen sneaking off in the dead of night when no one is watching to go meet up with her Skyclan boyfriend. Scorchpaw stops her asking what in the world she is up to...
She tells him the truth and asks him to keep it a secret
Pauses the movie
"ok did you catch that part? cause itlll be imporrtant later... she asks him to keep a secret got it?"
resumes
plays movie
batpaw crying over her dead parents shows on the screen
mashes the fast forward button
"yeah yeah yeah not relevant to this at the moment, i promise Im working to a point"
plays again
is batsong now and Scorchtalon now all grown up, Batsong had the skyclan cats kit at this point but that kit died shortly after and so did skyclan cat boyfriend.
They were out hunting herbs with Scorchtalons brother actually part of where batsong learned alot of her herbs knowledge that is still in use to this day.
The two of them are very close friends here as is evident
"In fact, they were such good friends that shortly after this Scorchtalon shares a secret of his own"
Scorchtalon can be seen sharing his secret of him and Marshmallow to Batsong and begs her to keep it a secret.
"I promise, I wont tell anyone" she meows with a nod.
"hmm anyone batsong?? .. well if you say so"
fasts forwards a bit more is batsongs med ceromony,
With berrypaws death there is no one else to take charge of the med den and starclan has chosen her now, she hesitently takes it but after some encouragment from her late mother Swiftsprit settles in.... and after alot of hard gruling work and almost banging her head against the wall later she finally learns all the herbs
wow good job.
Fasts forwards some more
Glances over at the reader... yea I know I know its alot but there is alot of history between these two and u were the one who asked why she is so sad remember?"
plays again
Is shown to be the moonstone where starclan revieals Scorch and Marshs relation and warns of dark things to come soon after.
"yeah so here she doesnt know what to do... on one paw she already knew they were together but she didnt know what the dark event was at the time... she feared that it would doom windclan if they stuck together so she was worried .... she didnt wanna do this but felt starclan was giving her no other option but to warn the leaders and deputy about it"
fast forwards but just slitghly
"And here we see her ratting her lifelong friend out and spilling his secret that just a little earlier she promised she would keep... oh and you havent forgetten that he kept her secret right?? cause I told you not to forget that part either... so now, not only has she blown up his life and relationship, but she did that after the fact that he was s good friend to her and kept hers a secret"
sighs and shakes my head... "and it turns out... it TURNS OUT the omen she was so scrared of wasnt even about windclan and had nothing to do with those two
ruining anything at all!!!"
I mean folks... can anything have gone worse for her here? ... oh thats right yea they could have cause we are not even to the end
fast forwards again
Scorchtalon has become much more quiet and reserved, he isnt allowed to see Marshmallow anymore, not allowed to go near shadowclan even... he hasnt eaten as much as he should have and has fallen into a big slump... Batsong can be seen applogizing to him over and over and he ...
he forgives her for all of it, he even says he understands.
fast forwards one last time
the sadness it took on Scorchtalon eventually led to him getting sick and he can be seen very weak here, Batsong trying to take care of him but ends up failing and results in his death not long after.
Broken hearted and full of regret she soon after accomonies the elders to help burry him to see him one last time.
There isnt a day that goes by where she wishes she never told on her friend. He had trusted her with it and she had let him down... sabatoged him it sometiems even felt like. At the time, it felt so important to warn the leaders of what might happen... but as she later learned it was just about the flood that hit shadowclan, nothing that anyone could have done about that knowing that scorch and marsh were togehter or not would not have chanced that... so why had she ratted him out??
The absolute truth was that she was scared for her clan, she had all the best intentions at heart.
But over time, she had gaslit herself into beliving that she had done it with bad intentions, had been jelous of Scorch and watnted to break him and marsh up.
Was that true? Did she want to break them up at the time? NO abosulutely not. She wouldnt ever do that to her friend ever! But she had felt so bad about how it played out that she guilted herself into beliving that is what happened.
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We now get back to where we are today... ONE year later from when they first met and first played together in the snow. Such an incredible and wholesome topic that snow playing was. Who would have guessed that it would end like this?
