Hi guys.

I know you all hate me, so just comment mean things about me. Make me feel bad, I won't care.

I'm leaving. Yeah you guys know. It's my fault. I've been a bad person and now everyone hates me. Who's fault is that? Mine. I understand and now know I'm not needed. I'm not trying to be a drama queen, I swear, but things aren't going well for me.

I might as well tell you what's happening.

You see, I get good grades. My parents love me. But when I was little, my parents, unmarried, split up. I kept switching whom I lived with. I was given to my grandparents at 7. Ever since then I've become a mess of anxiety and sad feelings, held all together by a single hope that one day it will get better. I don't think it will.

I lashed out on you all, and I'm ashamed of myself. My actions were horrible. I should never have done that. But with being cyberbullied, bullied, mistreated, loved ones dying, responsibilities, family problems and thoughts of suicide floating around, I lashed out. I'm sorry. My actions took a leap in the wrong directions and hurt the ones I care about- You guys.

I'm sorry. I might be back in a few days, weeks or months. But only when I feel I can restart. Say Tawnypaw and Smokepaw disappeared forever, okay? Keep Strike, Icetail and Sunpaw. I'll need those when I come back.

Ilysm guys. I do.

~Cat out