that is pretty gay fr tho
i'd also like to state that while the ticks in michigan were extremely sexist for some reason and only targeted the men, they really did pick on poor jay in particular
i love all of these nerds sm bless this cat site
edit;; heck why not. i want a turn being wholesome too.
tw: tho, im throwing some trauma in here to drive the good point that is totally there i promise, but yes
tw: abuse, cheating, drugs, depression, minecrafting yourself
i've been through many ups and downs with this website from the very beginning, but it's honestly been one of the most influential things in my life, and truly for the better.
- just in case bc i kinda feel bad:
i have never really been shy about my former situation, so a few may be familiar with this already. i was raised in an extremely toxic household. my father was verbally and emotionally abusive, neglectful, and for as long as i can remember my father had on and off cheating on my mother. i lost track of the women at some point, but he would go as far as taking us, the kids, to his mistresses house against my mother's will. my poor dear mother never dealt with her own traumas and hit several all-time lows; going in and out of mental clinics; drinking and prescription opioids were her vices of choice.
to say that i struggled in my early years was an understatement. if it wasn't for this silly cat website and all of the amazing people that i had the blessing of being able to talk to everyday, i might not be alive still. it's awful to say, but its true. there were many nights i teetered on the edge of doing myself serious harm, but i normally had one or two cat friends still hanging around at 2am to keep me company and roleplay hunting mice or whatever. the sort of friendships i made here are so invaluable, and i feel like one of the luckiest people in the world to have not only met such great friends, but the love of my life as well - on a kitty kat hiss hiss ride or die rp website on one of the jankest forumboards on this side of the internet. i think so many of us stuck around after so long because the friendships we formed here were so unique, and we had so many fun days and nights together.
there's quite a few characters i made here that are near and dear to my heart. notably ebonyroot, whose name has basically become my entire sense of self. she was a shadowclan medicine cat that was popular all around the forest because she literally trained medicine cats in just about every clan. (we had strict character limits ok, times here hard then) her big plot was she fell for one of her apprentices, icewhisker, who icee rp'd - and in retrospect (if you know, you know) is so heckin' funny imo. she was really special to me tho. i loved the whole idea and concept of the medicine cat in both the medical and spiritual way. it's a vibe i've always loved, and i really, really think encouraged little me in the longrun to go into nursing. fun fact: that job turned out to be my passion and calling, except im slapping on tegaderm instead of cobwebs.
there was also sagewhisker/sagestar, one of my pride and joys. we did a whole big reboot of the site because many people (chiefly me) were snooty at the time and thought we needed to wipe the slate clean. also in retrospect, very stupid of me, even if the naming system is still baller. (forcing arbitrary rules onto your members isn't fun for everyone, as things turn now tho); now wandering too far from the point -
i put on one of the biggest presidental runs in american history. in that i ran for the honor of being shadowclan leader and getting to raise a clan to fruition - with literally everyone else starting in kithood. (save other clan leaders ofc) it was one of the most fun roleplay experiences i had, even if keeping up with ceremonies is always heckin annoying. he was known as being a prickly leader, proud, stubborn, arrogant even, but he also had a low-key sweet side to him that care deeply for his entire clan like family. he had been blessed to have kits, but it came at the eventual expense of his honor. he loved the riverclan leader, froststar, having been close friends since apprenticehood. forbidden romance is always tasty, but the way the story ended had shakespear.
i also love stormsong smsm still. for a "traditional" rp'er, i really do have a thing for forbidden romances. i love playing my dorky son all the same. i really do want to rp him more, esp since there's a certain few who have held me at gunpoint to post, but life keeps you too busy sometimes. i haven't run a dnd session even in a while and i know how much pain my players are in for it, even if they put on brave faces. (i know many of you will understand this because i truly believe that one of the natural laws of the universe has to be that there's a legitimate warrior cats rp'er to dnd player pipeline). fun fact: the people i run for are people that i met through this site!! or friends of those friends, who i made friends with, because i know so many incredible people! thank's cat site!!!
i never really post in these things bc i always feel that slep covers my feelings fairly nicely (minus one year) but im just kinda letting the words spill out now because i really do feel so grateful for this site and blessed to have been able to make so many friends and meet so many incredible people.
i have worked so hard to leave my trauma behind and try to become a better person day by day, and i can't imagine finding any peace in life without this place. isn't that nuts? but it's true. i love it sm.
anyways
tl;dr life made me sad, but this place made me glad, thanks cat website :)
slep is pretty gay tho frfr live laugh love
